Just Married.

And so,

we're married <3

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, seandainya telah kau catatkan dia milikku, tercipta buatku, dekatkanlah dia padaku, satukan hatinya dengan hatiku, titipkanlah kemesraan di antara kami agar kebahagiaan itu abadi.
Dan Tuhanku Yang Maha Pengasih, seiringkanlah kami dalam melayari ketepian yang sejahtera, sepertimana yang Engkau kehendaki.

“ Ya Allah, sesungguhnya hati kami ini bersatu dengan kasih sayangMu, bertemu di atas ketaatan kepadaMu, bersatu di jalan dakwahMu dan berjanji menegakkan AgamaMu... Maha Suci Engkau, perteguhkanlah tali ikatan antara kami ini, limpahkanlah kasih sayang di dalam hati kami ini. Engkau tunjukkanlah kami jalan hidayahMu, sesungguhnya padaMu kami berserah dan tempat kami memohon pertolongan “

~ Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin ~

Islam permits Ghibtah

What Islam permits in contrast to Hasad (destructive jealousy) is Ghibtah (envy that is free from malice), which means neither loving the loss of the blessing nor hating for it to remain with the person, but desiring the same for oneself without the removal of the blessing from others. 
The Messenger of Allah (sallallahu alaihi wa-sallam) said: "Envy is allowed in two cases, in case of a man whom Allah has given the Qur'aan and who recites it throughout night and day; and a man on whom Allah has bestowed wealth who gives it away throughout night and day." [Saheeh al-Bukharee and Saheeh Muslim] and he (sallallahu alaihi wa-sallam) also explained what may be said: "I wish I were given what he was given and did with it what he did."




Note to self ;)

ramadhan lagi :)

7th Ramadhan today,

I'm still struggling for time and energy to complete my assignment and trying so hard to hit this month's target as well. Alhamdulillah, I thought I would be a Rank U officer this month cause my performance were extremely worst during the start of the month. But as of 3rd last day of the month which is today, I already manage to cross Rank B. Syukur sangat-sangat, mungkin berkat bulan mulia :D


Manage to find time to buka with aman twice, so far. First time tu, we tapau food from Bussoroh St and rushed to Queenstown coz I have class at 7pm. So aman decided to do his terawih at mosque opposite school while I'm attending my lecture. The second time, pun beli makan kat tempat sama. (hehe, tak tau ke.. kite ni memang muka arab street! hehe) this time, we actually ate kat tepi road just beside aman's car, siap kutip kotak2 tak pakai kat tepi and sat down, hehe. Alhamdulillah, manage to terawih despite peyot yang sangat full saat tu.


A friend told me her intention to wear hijab, and another friend of mine begins to fast (again) after years tak puasa :( InsyaAllah, moga Allah buka hati dan mata kalian untuk terus berubah to the right path :)

Right now, I just don't look forward to my period, hurhur! Sayang nak tinggalkan puasa tapi apakan daya, itu pun nikmat Allah kn, hehe.. Oh, thank you for those who pray for my dad's speed recovery. He's discharged and insyaAllah healthy now to continue fasting.


Ma'asslaamah! :))

Alhamdulillah,


Today is the first day of Ramadhan. Am so blessed to meet Ramadhan again :) Am tested with alot of stuffs lately, but i believe all this happens for reasons. I'm so happy that I have Aman by my side, who lends a listening ear, supports me all the way and tak pernah loke giving encouraging words. Issit just me, or everyone who's doing what I'm doing, feels the same? My third year as an undergraduate, and ULTIMATE level of stress at work..yaAllah, it really really tests my patience. Kesian Aman coz sometimes I don't even realized that I treat him badly due to the stress. But he's always always there, masyaAllah. Am truly blessed :')

Attended kursus persiapan rumah tangga, and it taught me ALOT of things. Jangan segan untuk cakap "tak sabar nak kawin!" sebab kahwin tu mulia sangat2 di sisi-Nya.

So, saya memang tak sabar nak kahwin! Bole collect2 pahala tau! hehe :)

Till here, assalamualaikum..

heyya!

eleventh of June. four months before the DAY. preparations? alhamdulillah.. all is on track. i just need to find a day where both of us are free to attend the kursus kahwin, and also buying hantaran stuff for him. thats all we're left with :D i'm trying my level best to keep everything as SIMPLE as it can be. really, reception is something that one shouldn't splurge on :) how simple u might ask? stay tune hehe

anyway i love all my barang hantarans! too bad i have to bear the itchy hands till october tsk. oh, we're thinking of going to krabi as our honeymoon destination. am gonna take a package that comes with a lotttt of activities like snorkeling, elephant riding, kalau ada bungee pun nak! hehe.. and i love my wedding card that was designed my dear brother. so victiorian-ish :) cant wait to write on it and distribute to the guests, insyaallah.. 

me and aman is enjoying our engagement life.. gaduh tu perkara yang sangat biasa tapi alhamdulillah, we always end our fight with 'moral of the story' & 'what i learn about you today' moments. am so blessed to have a man who is 9 years older than me. he taught me alot of things :) sayang abg ;)

I did all this at the age of 21.

our eyes first met on march 2010, engaged on march 2011 and getting married in october 2012 insyaAllah..  question, why everything moving so fast? i was amazed myself when dad initiated the engagement. no proposal, no 'will u marry me' moment, skip skip and skip. 

to be honest and truly honest.. i never thought we will ever be serious. 'just another guy in ma life', i told myself. but things turned out differently. but ofcoz, this isnt a drama, things doesnt always work out great for both of us. we go through ups and downs. between us lies many differences, the way we think is a total opposite. i go through a whole lot of jealousy while him thinking going out with his girlfriends is o-kay. athe 9 years ge gap is also one of the factor of our arguments.

started my first ever career with a foreign bank as relationship officer on september 2010  is neither tough nor easy. i cant lie to myself that i always wanted to quit due to the overwhelming stress and pressure. i met different colleague every 2 months, that makes me ask myself... am i being fool for staying, or strong for not giving up? and the thought that's im doing my part time degree under uni of wales..oh it adds on the stress. period. but one thing that keeps me going is... i NEED to save up for our marriage, our future, our house, our kids. i have to pace up coz everything is going just..too...fast. ever think of giving up my studies as well.. but one must upgrade themselves right? oh life in singapore...

exam in 2 hours time!

Took half day leave as ive got finance paper at 3:45 later. I left office with an eased mind coz i manage to closed n processed 58k transaction by which 19k of it was installment. Its a luck, i shd say ;) anywy alhmdulillah. i really hope i could juggle both work commitments coz when im right on track, the satisfaction is beyond words to describe. true we cant get the best of both worlds, but so long as i know i did my very best, i will nvr regret with wtvr the result or outcome gonna b. Coz u know what.. nobody is gonna freaking care of how bad ur day is, hw lousy ur luck is, no one wudnt even wanna know hw tired u r physically mentally n emotionally. so when u fall, u jz have to get urself up again.. This is life.. in the bus now on the way to school. hopefully i manage to do the exam questions. insyaallah, bismillah...

'coz I have a bad day

it is just the matter of acknowledging.. i guess that doesn't kill, but then again.. one has an option,
a choice to lead his/her life.. whatever it is, prinsip tak menghalalkan cara..


everything happened in a day, being called ugly.. was made feel unimportant, and before i even manage to end the day releasing my thought..somebody just make me look like a dumb.

the best part? all that happened in the midst of my preparation for exam. who am i left with: zilch, none.

the effort

in the name of future and happiness, I shall give my all..